sufferings.. :((

know what? I'm really tired.. tired of many things around me.. I don't know what to do.. 

you know i love you but don't push me that hard to leave you.. and I don't want to leave you either..

so think of your actions first before doing it, because your actions might be the reason for me to leave you.. I had  given you many chances before.. this is your last shot so grab the opportunity and never fail me again.. I'm confused right now.. all i can feel is pain.. every time.. so please.. THINK!!